her.

i saw her again today. 

hair in ponytails, simple denim jacket, black trousers, blue backpack, navy Converse. i’ll bet shades of blue as her favorite color.

she always stands there, at the very same spot, leaning to the last pole of the platform.

earbuds on, ipod in her pocket. 

sometimes i stand close enough to know that she smells of popcorn. the ones with caramel.

other times i watch her from afar, watching her lips form some syllables that’s greatly possible a song from her playlist.

she always hops on the same train, the train on which i hop too. the ten to six train, in the morning.

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today, i hop on the same car of the train. she was right beside me. 

i could smell the caramel aroma. sweet and got me bewitched.

i could see the little mole behind her ear. someone ever said a person whose mole behind ears is a good listener. i wonder if she is one.

i could eavesdrop the song she’s listening. call it dreaming by iron and wine.

i love the song.i love the way universe conspires for us to stand side by side. although not hand in hand. at least, not yet.

and i may fall in love with her. somewhere in the middle of this ride. or someday when i no longer find her in my sight.

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or perhaps i already did. 

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him.

that broad but not so broad shoulders.

that short black hair. 

that folded long-sleeve black shirt. 

that black-framed specs.

i don’t know since when my eyes started to realize his existence. perhaps just today, yesterday, or the day before yesterday.

my eyes always wander around, observe here and there, until they stop there. at the corner where he stands. just like that.

even until i will undoubtedly believe that he has invisible magnets within him.

he holds a book with dark cover.

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the train is about to arrive. 

i shift my eyes to the direction from where it’s coming.

a smell of cedar wood suddenly creeps into my nose. 

i glance around only to find him standing behind me.

then i hop on the car. he hops after. standing in my right side.

i can smell him as clear as today’s sky. i feel intoxicated. no guy ever smells this good before.

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe. i can read the book’s title now that it’s within my eyesight.

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“hmm, sorry? you got some tissues left on your forehead.” he suddenly speaks, touching his own forehead.

i stammer at those sudden words, mirroring his action in reflex. “ah? thanks.”

he nods, smiling. a smile so soft that could make every heart flutters.

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i don’t fall for someone easily.

but when i do, i fall hard.

with no caution and question.

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New Life, New You

It might be true that whenever you plan to start something new, you gotta be the new you.

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Hi! A month passed without any post. Not because I don't have anything to write, but it's because I have too many things to write.

It's September 10 and one of my long-lost twin brother just got married yesterday. It's one emotional ride though. We're close enough that somehow I feel like I could relate to him in many ways. When he first told me that he's going to marry, I was taken aback and had to make sure that it's real. Him being him that I knew all this time wouldn't decide to marry this soon. But he has changed. 

How could I know that he did? Because I feel it. From the way we communicate, his choice of words, and his way of thinking. I believe in written words so strong that I perceive someone's personality and feeling through it. I blurted it out though, saying he's gotten wiser than ever.

A willing of change, is one thing I marked most from this time. You got to take a deeper risk, learn something new, and then got a bigger result. Just like how he dared asking his girlfriend (now wife) to marry him, he should have learnt how to be a good and responsible husband for her. The reason itself varies from one individual to another though. His might be due to jealousy and remorse, mine and yours might be due to a shocking event? A random encounter? Or we'd share the same reason as him? We'd never know.

The only thing I think I realize is you have to change if you'd like to have a new life. Because it's greatly possible that the old you could no more accomodate the new challenges which tagged along. And this, only means a change to be a better version of you.

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